Thursday, May 29, 2003

Life seems like it is getting worse ... better ... Life is changing for me every day. I turned seventeen at a few minutes past eight o'click in the morning today. Funny, I haven't been counting up years so much as I have been counting down until I turn eighteen. That means I have another year to get organized, ready, prepared, smart, or whatever the hell it is that I need to do in order to be a fully autonomous human being in society. But today. I need to focus on today.
I went out the last two nights until ten. Ten is curfew for me, but that is beside the point. My parents let me out of my cage -- two nights in a row. I think I got more out of those two nights than I even know. It was fun just to chill, but I also realized that people are not always out to get me. I guess that whole friendship thing kinda got to me :)
But today is my birthday. We are having steak in a few minutes. I need to relax. Before the weekend. The weekend will be my time to work -- play catch up in school. Make a movie. My sister comes home this weekend. Stress. Hope. Despair. Anxiety. Apathy. Fun.