Friday, June 20, 2003

what a day. i wish i could just crawl into a hole and curl up and understand life. for just a split second. i just want to know why things happen the way they do. if only i knew. if only i knew.
this is the internet. therefore i must watch what i say for who knows who may be reading even as i type. i wish i could spill what was on my mind. my thoughts... my true thoughts. i have just had too many bad experiences with the internet like that though. if i post what i know, what i think, what is on my mind, i become vulnerable. my parents could read it. my teachers, counselors, and worst of all: friends would be reading. or maybe friends would be the best of all. i don't know. i wish i knew.
i just realized i make no sense. you are probably wondering what happened to me. am i on drugs? no. am i depressed? no. am i alive? yes. then what is going on? i only wish i could say. i want to, but i can't. if you want to know, call me. please. something is going on.