Tuesday, October 21, 2003

chico state determines my fate

I was talking with my dad about college and my on the spot admissions day that is ominously lurking in the depths of my tomorrow afternoon schedule. Now, I have a pretty $|-|177Y GPA goin' for me right about now, but a 1280 on the SAT to make up for it. I figure I can get in to chico state with a bit (but not much) of luck. I told my dad it was my 'backup school'. He said "NO WAY! David, a backup school is a school you feel confident you can get in to; Shasta College is your backup school". Shasta is our local JC. They don't reject anyone from that shcool. I won't delve into the exact numbers of my grade point average, but is it really that bad that the Chico office of admissions will spit it back in my face like my dad says they have the ability - and right - to do? I mean, I am a nice kid with a lot going for me: a rebounding report card, a great letter of recommendation from my principal, and semi-good test scores. I will say it. I fucked up. I realize that I won't be going to MIT or CalTech or even CalPoly, but am I truly that hopeless that I won't get into Chico State?
The way my parents used to talk about Chico State made me believe I would never even consider going there. I was much too good for Chico!. Now it appears that I might go there. I don't know; I feel as if I am letting my parents (both have multiple college degrees, my dad also went to med school) down in a huge way. That's what they communicate to me sometimes. It makes me wonder about how I will treat my kids. That is if I live long enough to have them.
Well, all in all, tomorrow will be a massive day in the history of my life story. The day I (didn't) get in to California State University at Chico.