Tuesday, December 31, 2002

New years eve, and I've nothing better to do tha update my blog. Hmm...
Tonight I am going to the traditional X-Box LAN game at my friends house. Should be a bunch of people there, with 4 of the monsters running. I went to Camerons house, and he (of all people) got one for christmas, so I brushed up on my halo skills :) I swear, that is the neatest game out there. It was designed so well, you can play with 16 people, and it has graphics to boot! Well. I just can't wait for halo2 to come out. And for me to get an xbox off ebay.

Thursday, December 26, 2002

Merry Christmas, happy new year, yadda yadda. Every year, christmas changes so much in our family. I saw my older sisters go through it, and thought they were crazy. Now I am going through it, and think I am crazy. Its all fun and good when you're a kid, and you look forward to it, and are totally stoked, but when you grow up, it loses its fun.
For instance... Our family has a lot of traditions. We put up these little ceramic houses from mervins, or however you spell that place. A few years ago, it was great fun for the family to arrange them and put up the fake people and little fake snow. This year all the kids were all, "mom, if you want your houses, you put them up yourself. She did. We didn't. Also, same thing with the tree. None of the kids decorated it, actually my dad did.
Then it was horrible when I found out that my sister was "santa", who put all the stuff in our stockings. Need I say more?

So who knows what it will be like next year. It will come, however, for better or for worse.

Thursday, December 19, 2002

Got me thinking... Have you ever noticed that DVDs always come out on tuesdays? I wonder why that is.

Man what a day. This is the second day in a row I was supposed to go snowboarding and didn't. The freeway is closed due to snow. It even snowed a few inches at my house, and probably will more tonight. I had to wipe the snow off the garbage can lid when I took out the trash. Speaking of lord of the rings, I went and saw the two towers tonight. It was so much more intense than the first one. I liked it a bit better, but its hard to say. I can't wait for the return of the king. I mean the movie.

Monday, December 16, 2002

Another idiosyncrasy of my dad's that I hate: Ever since we got the dvd player a while back, he thinks it is imperative that he look at the trailer before the movie, the deleted scenes after, and then fall asleep watching the directors cut. Just thought I should say that and let the world know.

yeah, got my chip today. Its totally cool. I am actually on my computer right now, not some pos that belongs to the anderson union high school district. I took a bunch of pics of it, just to make sure it was actually there :) It works very nicely, and I had no trouble installing it at all. It doesn't run extremely cool witht the included fan, but thats okay for now. (141 deg.f)
I didn't have school today. The school lost all power, and so the server was down and the phones didn't work and a bunch of stuff just went wrong, so school didn't happen today. The server is up again, however, so it looks as if I am going back tomorrow. The day off was nice, especially for a monday.
My sister is home.
Its snowing up on mt. shasta.
thats all i know so far.

Friday, December 13, 2002

You Are Tangerine

You are a beautiful person, in a wistful kind of way. If you could, you would spend all your time daydreaming and writing poetry. You are a tragic beauty.

You are sensitive and caring, and you don't take insults well. You don't smile much, but when you do, you really mean it.

People like to be around you because you are a calming influence. You have an appreciation for all things beautiful, and you probably have some potted plants. You also most likely own a cat.

You like Sundays and hot tea. You will spend your entire life yearning for quiet beauty, which is a rarity in this world, so you read a lot.

Everyone you know thinks you're "nice."

Take the Which Led Zeppelin Song Are You? Quiz


I don't usually, but I just couldn't find anything better to do.

College, grades, school... It seems like every time I see or talk to my dad that is what the conversation is about. We just made dinner together, and I was telling him about this thing I was doing on the computer. He went along with it for a minute or two, then said that a friend of his daughter just went to such and such a college in washington. She now works for microsoft and makes a bajillion dollars in computer design or something like that. But then he added "She said you need at least a 2.8 to even be considered to get in; lets hope you can get at least that. And really good scores on the SAT". It is friday, a day of relaxation when I get home. The last thing I want is for my dad to tell me how dumb I am. He does it just because he loves me he says. Fuck that. He just wants me to be himself. He wants his only son to be made in his own image, getting A's throughout school. Im not like him. I don't delight in making my teachers smile because I am such an angel. I don't find happiness in grades and accomplishment like he does. And I do not care anymore. He talks to me and it is in one ear and out the other. I dread talking to him now.

Wednesday, December 11, 2002

One more thing about new hardware... my dad just got a new digital camera for christmas. (dont ask) All I need to say is that it is the size of a credit card, really thin, and 2.0 megapixel rez. [sharperimage page]

I went to that wedding last weekend, but it seems so far away, I don't think I will talk about it. We had that history project too, but I *really* don't want to talk about that. Whats left then? When in doubt... linux. Oh, I know! I got a new processor on ebay today! It is an AMD Athlon XP 2100+ (retail, not OEM, in unopened box) We paid 10 bucks for shipping, so it should get here soon. When I get it, I will have a working computer, not the pos I have been working on. It has no serial port, one pci slot custom manufactured by acer to only work with their hardware, and more than all that, it sucks. The only good thing about the computer is that is has linux :)

Friday, December 06, 2002

I am in somewhere in the bay area in the lobby of a hotel room editing my blog. It is 8:40, and I have no life or anything better to do. I am expecting a file from tony so i can get started on my schoolwork, but who knows if that is going to happen. That major project we have is due on monday, and I don't know if we are going to get it all in on time. Hmmm... I am still in the lobby listening to let it snow on the 'lobbyradio' thing they have goin on. The gay receptionist thinks im pretty cool, and talks to me like a 5 year-old. fun. I think my time here is done.

Thursday, December 05, 2002

My mood today went from extatic, to pissed, to extatic to pissed to extatic. Let me explain. I got a note during school from my mother telling me that my motherboard came in the mail. Naturally, I was extatic. However, on the way home, I realized that I would do nothing but work on the computer all night when I have this crazy big project due tomorrow. I got pissed, because I need a good grade. I got home and built it anyway, and found that another part (the chip) is bad, so I was extatic that I could work on the project. However, that excitement came to disappointment when i realized I needed a new CPU. I told my parents, and they (well, my mom) were sympathetic and told me I could get a new one, so long as it was under $100, so I was extatic that I could get an upgrade. (from an XP 1800+ to a 2200+). So now, I am undecided, because I have to do the project (its a drag), but I get a new CPU soon, but my computer is broken until then, but I have a chance to bring up my grade... I don't know. I better just get working on the project.

Wednesday, December 04, 2002

A really good friend of mine got in a car wreck today. Rumors wer flying as fast as you can dial a 7 digit number. At first she got knocked uncouncious, but then rumor said that she was awake, but couldn't remember anything. I guess she was airlifted out to the hospital and put in the ER. The next phone call I got said that she was safe at home after being discharged. Then I got another call saying that she was still at the hospital. Funny thing is that everyone will go to school tomorrow and brag at how they knew before someone else, or how many details they knew first. I just hope she's alright.

I shouldn't be doing this. I shouldn't be online. (I have been for 6 hours and 31 minutes since I got home at 3 oclock). I have no life. I have crazy homework due friday, and that day is fast approaching. Alot faster than it usually does. Shit. I hate myself. I hate the way I work. I hate it when I get bad grades, but I have no motivation to do anything about it when I know I am going to get a bad grade. I have no motivation to do anything. I am worthless in the working world. My life is a dull routine of me failing, getting eaten out by my parents, promising I will reform, and then starting it all over again. and again. and again.

I got a new window manager for my linux box running SuSE (pronounced soo-zee) called blackbox. Thanks to dex for the tip on that one. I will get a screenshot when I get around to doing one. Today, Im going to get gaim and the gimp to put on it. Anyway, I was up late last night just kind of plaing aroun on linux. I can't wait to get my new computer up and running with a mobo that actually works. That way I can have a server that actually works with whatever I want to put on it. im at school, so Im out...

Monday, December 02, 2002

127.0.0.1 Great fun in that number :) SuSE is way more powerful, advanced, and just plain more awsome every time I turn around. However, it is more complicated, confusing, and more frustrating every time I turn around also. I can't get php on it for some reason. It isn't loading the mod_so.c module for some reason, and I don't know where it is located and... argh. I wish I knew my way around linux a little bit better. Plus I have homework. It's going to be a long nite. I wan't to learn php so badly I could scream. Oh, by the way, I still love linux. It still works.

Behold the power of linux. I installed a SuSe distrobution of linux on a machine last night and set up apache on it. It should get php4 on it today. It is a local http, ftp, ssh, etc... server. It is a small machine (~300mhz, 3gig, 64megs), but it is perfect as a webserver. Well, almost perfect. It is an acer 'value' computer, so it has issues. It only has 1 pci slot, currently taken up by a modem. I got a nic installed after a fun time with a dremel :) However, no matter what OS i run on it (I have tried win98, 95, redhat 7.3, and now suse) the computer wont start with the card in it. So until I can get a USB nic (do they make them?), it will be a *very* local server. It is something I can practice php on though. I love linux. It works.